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| Photo courtesy of Dana Gorab |
Truth be told, I wasn’t lucky enough to get tickets to the concert itself (although I tried hard), but I bought the online stream for the day and it’s still one of the moments I’ll never forget. It happened during the birthday party of a friend-of-a-friend in Santo André (São Paulo, Brazil). He’s also a big fan, so he was more than happy to put the show on his TV and sound system so we could watch it together.
Me and a close friend - also his friend - arrived early because we wanted to catch all the opening bands. With Brazil being three hours behind the UK, the show technically started around 10:30 a.m. We only managed to get there near the end of Pantera’s set, around 3 p.m., and immediately cracked open some beers. At that point it was just the two of us watching the stream; not even the host was ready yet, but he still let us in so we wouldn’t miss anything.
We’re huge fans of Ozzy and Sabbath, so the anticipation was massive. More guests slowly arrived, surprised to find a live-streamed metal show in the middle of a birthday party. Hours (and beers) later, Ozzy was finally about to come on. The lights went down, the crowd on-screen started screaming and we were standing there in the living room, eyes glued to the TV. My veins were buzzing when “O Fortuna” played, that iconic prelude he’s used since the Randy Rhoads era.
Then Ozzy appeared. Knowing how fragile he’d been, how much his music meant to me… I burst into tears immediately. When Zakk Wylde hit the opening riff of “I Don’t Know”, the emotion shifted into pure joy; witnessing that moment unfolding in real time. My friend looked at me and said, “Are you crying, man?!” I nodded. He laughed and gave me an “aww”, half teasing, half touched.
The next song was “Mr. Crowley”, one of my favourites. I couldn’t help thinking back to being a kid, spending five months learning that solo - a breakthrough moment that made everything else on guitar feel easier afterward. Then came “Suicide Solution”, and we toasted the song with fresh beers, soaking in the moment.
After that, Ozzy gave a speech. At first it was hard to understand - between the crowd noise, the party around me, his thick accent and the Parkinson’s making things harder - but once I tuned in, he was talking about how difficult the past years had been. I remembered having tickets to see him in Birmingham in 2019, postponed again and again. Then he said, “You have no idea how I feel… thank you from the bottom of my heart.” Knowing his love for the stage and his fans, that line hit hard. I broke down again.
Zakk started “Mama, I’m Coming Home” and as the cameras cut to the audience, everyone was crying. I looked at my friend; he was crying too. We looked at each other and laughed through it, overwhelmed by how intense it all felt.
He closed with “Crazy Train” and we both knew that was likely his last song of the night. I wasn’t sad; I was excited thinking I’d still see Black Sabbath right after it and convinced myself he still had some years left - so perhaps another album, maybe another farewell show. “Crazy Train” turned the whole room into a celebration.
I had no idea he only had a few weeks left to live.
Still, I’m grateful. For his music, his madness, his heart. Our music - hell, the entire landscape of heavy metal music - would sound very different without him. At this moment in my life, I don’t really believe in a God, but… God bless you, Ozzy, wherever you are.
Love you more.
- Elvis Suhadolnik Bonesso, Stone Sea












